Unbelievably unbelievable
that I’m going off to college in 7 days.
After reading Jimmy Bao’s heartfelt blog, I am feeling even more sad and sentimental. He expressed a lot of what I’m feeling, so I won’t repeat.
Pretty much, I just miss everything. A whole lot. Already.
I woke up this morning worrying about how the clubs were doing for freshmen orientation. I miss the rush, the stress, the worry. I miss the craziness, the fun, the excitement during. I miss the satisfaction at the end of the day.
I miss tennis. I miss the tennis girls. I miss suffering under the scorching hot sun together and friendly competition. I miss the gossip, the laughter, the determination.
Extracurriculars defined me and it feels like we broke up.
I miss worrying about summer work over worrying about your entire future. I miss not knowing my schedule til the first day of school. I miss having things figured out for you.
I already miss my family. I already miss the friends that know me inside and out, that’s watched me grow up and grown up with me, that won’t be accompanying me. I miss the friends now that I’ll have in college, because change is inevitable and nothing is certain.
I miss my summer relationship. We made it through distance, but sometimes distance does make the heart grow fonder. As ideal as it is that we’ll be going to college together, there may be changes that I’m not ready for.
I remember going into officer interviews my sophomore year and hearing the seniors talk about their experiences. I couldn’t wait to be a senior to do the same, and I fully took advantage of that during my JRX Group Officer Interview. Now I’m a darn freshman again.
I miss high school. I miss the simplicity of being young. Yeah, I’m still young, but more than ever, it feels like every decision determines my entire future.
Khuyen’s starting Kindergarten on Tuesday, and oh boy is she excited. I kinda want to trade places.
But because I can’t avoid it, I better suck it up and enjoy as I embark on this new adventure. I have to grow up sometime. Thank the lord Berkeley is only 50 miles away.
